Scion of NLP

… yep, that’s what it feels like — a sneak attack by the darkness of depression.

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Day after day we keep working and fighting the ‘good fight’ but it just seems to take a periodic turn for the worse. Recently it happened again — everything finally started to feel like it was coming together and then — BAM!!! — something gets caught … a little trip and stumble … then a sudden and unexpected fall.

And, that’s depression folks.

It seems like no matter how much you think you have it under control, from time to time life throws us a curve ball and, unlike most people, anyone who has a lifelong affliction with depression finds themselves suddenly sick and tired of trying …

… which I feel is summed up quite nicely by this little inked drawing I found online –

Dealing with depression all my life has given me some odd insights about this world;

• When you try your hardest and it just doesn’t seem to be good enough … it’s depressing.
• When you try to do everything right and things just don’t work out … it’s depressing.
• When you work at finding every solution you can but none of them are within reach … it’s depressing.
• Keeping a positive attitude in the face of constant defeat … it’s depressing.
• And yet, life just keeps going on … it’s depressing.

And the worst part is — when you don’t know you have a mind that twists your own perceptions to look for what sucks, it sucks … but when you DO KNOW that your mind is the thing that is holding you down … well … it still sucks, and there isn’t much you can do about it except keep up practice the things you no longer believe will work until it passes.

If anyone ever wonders why religion still exists in our science based society, it’s because when all other explanations only corrode and destroy one’s hope and dreams … you just have to ride it out on faith … but science doesn’t have faith and some days, neither do I.

(*blech!*)

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